A lot

Sometimes there is a just a lot.  A lot to deal with.  And sometimes you just do it anyways.  And sometimes you cry.  And then you keep going.

In Stake Conference last week the talks were all on loving one another and service etc.  A man got called on to bear his testimony and he looked like just a regular guy... well once he told his family situation I was in tears and it just goes to show that you never know what someone is going through.  We sang Lord I Would Follow Thee and I cried as it related to me but also to all those around me and I just keep having the lines in my head "in the wounded heart is hidden sorrow that the eye can't see" and how important it is to be sensitive to those around you.

I feel like I have a lot on my plate right now.  And I can do it, but it's hard.  When Paula goes out of town and I try and help everyone it is exhausting.  I always have a renewed appreciation for her.  I feel like I already have a lot of my own kids.  While loving these people comes so easy it is really hard.  I stay up at night worrying about all the people I care about and the decisions they are making and if people are getting taken care of.  It's hard to not be able to take care of everything yourself.  Being 33 weeks pregnant on top of that doesn't help.  And being sick on top of that doesn't help.  Yes, pity party over here.  Ok done.

I'm not sure what my point is other than I think it's important to try and be aware of those around you.  I have people that I struggle with and maybe they have things that I don't know about.  Hard things.  So here is a resolve to be easier to love, slower to anger, and patient with the burdens we get.  As Ellen would say "Be kind to one another"

This makes no sense.

I tried.

Kthnxbye

Ryker

So a crazy thing is happening on Saturday.  My little man Ryker is turning 8.  Whaaa??? yes, 8.  This little guy was the best thing ever at 16.  I would see him every chance I got and would do anything to get a ride to his house just to hold him.  I was smitten from day 1.  I even watched the little guy come into the world... brings back some memories and therefore some anxiety for my future.  I feel so lucky to have these sweet kids in my life and get to spend so much time with them.  This guy is a major sports star in the making.  We try to make it to as many of his soccer and basketball games as we can.  Biggest fan.  I do miss the days when he started playing soccer at age 3.  Glorious times.  Can't wait to watch him in high school... yes, I can.  I don't want him to grow up.  I love all the babies in my life but Ryker was my first.  Happy Birthday Love!