William Anthony Messam

Well it has been over three months but baby is here and he is the greatest. He came in on his due date April 12 weighing 7lbs 2ounces and 21 inches long.  He is constantly moving around and a happy little guy. Labor was possibly the worst experience of my life and I think I have a little PTSD about it but being a mom is the BEST job ever.  ever.  I love this little nugget and he is such a good baby.  I like to think God made him such a sweet guy for the poopy delivery... meaning bad delivery, I didn't actually poop despite my worst fears.  Could the delivery have been worse?  of course.  but baby ripped me to shreds, literally.  Still on the mend (sorry daddy) but almost back to our old self... plus 30 extra lbs.  working on it.  28 extra lbs.  In case there is one person who actually reads this who has never seen the handsome guy.....these are his 6ish week photos.  Thanks to my cousin Lana for the awesome gift of these photos.

Baby Rowan

Baby Rowan is here!!  We are still "patiently" awaiting the arrival of baby William but it has been so fun to get a taste of what it will be like again. He is just a tiny little guy and I'm a little nervous to be responsible for one of these sweet babies.  He was three weeks early coming in at 6 lb 8 oz 18 1/2 inches long.  Almost exactly my own stats.  And Amanda was so hardcore and pushed this guy out completely natural!! Bad A$$!

Love getting poems from Afton

 And a couple kid photos from Easter

This girl is obsessed with opening and closing doors.  she was the doorman all  afternoon.

It's impossible to get a good photo but we got close

next post... hopefully will be about baby Will

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done

Baby, I love you but I want you out.  so please get out so I can hold you. and stop throwing up. and lay on my back.  but mostly so I can hold you.
but seriously.  please come out.  like today.

love,
mom

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The Texas Clan

We love getting together with our friends Emily and Jason and we finally got to meet their little guy Charlie.  Somehow we always end up at Texas Roadhouse which is ok with all of us.  We then got to go to Culvers and enjoy some tummy ache inducing dessert.  We think they should move a little closer to us.

and my dear friends... we have LESS than a month.  I'm hoping for like two weeks.. he seems pretty squished in there and I think he wouldn't mind coming out either.

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cat sup

been unmotivated to write here but here is the low down on our lives....

These guys can come anytime now... at least that's what we think.  Dr says they have some weeks left

We celebrated Abe's bday by making these fancy hats

Ryker got baptized... how did he/I get so old?

Clovie turned 2!

Mel had a birthday shindig with some yummy dinner for us

 

Got spoiled at my showers.. big thank you to everyone who represented!

 

I canNOT wait for this little man to get out.  I really want to see him and I really want to sleep on my stomach and just walk without an imaginary stick up my butt.  We have all of his cute tiny clothes washed and ready and the bassinet etc now we just need the baby.  So.... whenever you are ready little man. Wish us luck.

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A lot

Sometimes there is a just a lot.  A lot to deal with.  And sometimes you just do it anyways.  And sometimes you cry.  And then you keep going.

In Stake Conference last week the talks were all on loving one another and service etc.  A man got called on to bear his testimony and he looked like just a regular guy... well once he told his family situation I was in tears and it just goes to show that you never know what someone is going through.  We sang Lord I Would Follow Thee and I cried as it related to me but also to all those around me and I just keep having the lines in my head "in the wounded heart is hidden sorrow that the eye can't see" and how important it is to be sensitive to those around you.

I feel like I have a lot on my plate right now.  And I can do it, but it's hard.  When Paula goes out of town and I try and help everyone it is exhausting.  I always have a renewed appreciation for her.  I feel like I already have a lot of my own kids.  While loving these people comes so easy it is really hard.  I stay up at night worrying about all the people I care about and the decisions they are making and if people are getting taken care of.  It's hard to not be able to take care of everything yourself.  Being 33 weeks pregnant on top of that doesn't help.  And being sick on top of that doesn't help.  Yes, pity party over here.  Ok done.

I'm not sure what my point is other than I think it's important to try and be aware of those around you.  I have people that I struggle with and maybe they have things that I don't know about.  Hard things.  So here is a resolve to be easier to love, slower to anger, and patient with the burdens we get.  As Ellen would say "Be kind to one another"

This makes no sense.

I tried.

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Ryker

So a crazy thing is happening on Saturday.  My little man Ryker is turning 8.  Whaaa??? yes, 8.  This little guy was the best thing ever at 16.  I would see him every chance I got and would do anything to get a ride to his house just to hold him.  I was smitten from day 1.  I even watched the little guy come into the world... brings back some memories and therefore some anxiety for my future.  I feel so lucky to have these sweet kids in my life and get to spend so much time with them.  This guy is a major sports star in the making.  We try to make it to as many of his soccer and basketball games as we can.  Biggest fan.  I do miss the days when he started playing soccer at age 3.  Glorious times.  Can't wait to watch him in high school... yes, I can.  I don't want him to grow up.  I love all the babies in my life but Ryker was my first.  Happy Birthday Love!

  

Luckiest

So yesterday we had Clover and Kelton from 1:30 - 11 and can I just say that Tony amazes me.  Like seriously.  He was changing poopy diapers, making bottles, feeding, burping, putting babies in jammies and just plain old doing the baby talk for an hour to make Kelton smile.  If you have seen Kelton smile you will know why.  Best smile ever.  I was not feeling great after throwing up that morning and getting blood taken and a shot and crying for an hour for no reason and he totally stepped up and helped me out.  I feel so blessed to have him with me to raise these babies that will come to us.  What a natural.  Love him. LOVE HIM!

I win.

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