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been unmotivated to write here but here is the low down on our lives....

These guys can come anytime now... at least that's what we think.  Dr says they have some weeks left

We celebrated Abe's bday by making these fancy hats

Ryker got baptized... how did he/I get so old?

Clovie turned 2!

Mel had a birthday shindig with some yummy dinner for us

 

Got spoiled at my showers.. big thank you to everyone who represented!

 

I canNOT wait for this little man to get out.  I really want to see him and I really want to sleep on my stomach and just walk without an imaginary stick up my butt.  We have all of his cute tiny clothes washed and ready and the bassinet etc now we just need the baby.  So.... whenever you are ready little man. Wish us luck.

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A lot

Sometimes there is a just a lot.  A lot to deal with.  And sometimes you just do it anyways.  And sometimes you cry.  And then you keep going.

In Stake Conference last week the talks were all on loving one another and service etc.  A man got called on to bear his testimony and he looked like just a regular guy... well once he told his family situation I was in tears and it just goes to show that you never know what someone is going through.  We sang Lord I Would Follow Thee and I cried as it related to me but also to all those around me and I just keep having the lines in my head "in the wounded heart is hidden sorrow that the eye can't see" and how important it is to be sensitive to those around you.

I feel like I have a lot on my plate right now.  And I can do it, but it's hard.  When Paula goes out of town and I try and help everyone it is exhausting.  I always have a renewed appreciation for her.  I feel like I already have a lot of my own kids.  While loving these people comes so easy it is really hard.  I stay up at night worrying about all the people I care about and the decisions they are making and if people are getting taken care of.  It's hard to not be able to take care of everything yourself.  Being 33 weeks pregnant on top of that doesn't help.  And being sick on top of that doesn't help.  Yes, pity party over here.  Ok done.

I'm not sure what my point is other than I think it's important to try and be aware of those around you.  I have people that I struggle with and maybe they have things that I don't know about.  Hard things.  So here is a resolve to be easier to love, slower to anger, and patient with the burdens we get.  As Ellen would say "Be kind to one another"

This makes no sense.

I tried.

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Ryker

So a crazy thing is happening on Saturday.  My little man Ryker is turning 8.  Whaaa??? yes, 8.  This little guy was the best thing ever at 16.  I would see him every chance I got and would do anything to get a ride to his house just to hold him.  I was smitten from day 1.  I even watched the little guy come into the world... brings back some memories and therefore some anxiety for my future.  I feel so lucky to have these sweet kids in my life and get to spend so much time with them.  This guy is a major sports star in the making.  We try to make it to as many of his soccer and basketball games as we can.  Biggest fan.  I do miss the days when he started playing soccer at age 3.  Glorious times.  Can't wait to watch him in high school... yes, I can.  I don't want him to grow up.  I love all the babies in my life but Ryker was my first.  Happy Birthday Love!

  

Luckiest

So yesterday we had Clover and Kelton from 1:30 - 11 and can I just say that Tony amazes me.  Like seriously.  He was changing poopy diapers, making bottles, feeding, burping, putting babies in jammies and just plain old doing the baby talk for an hour to make Kelton smile.  If you have seen Kelton smile you will know why.  Best smile ever.  I was not feeling great after throwing up that morning and getting blood taken and a shot and crying for an hour for no reason and he totally stepped up and helped me out.  I feel so blessed to have him with me to raise these babies that will come to us.  What a natural.  Love him. LOVE HIM!

I win.

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Paid in full

So my friends, yesterday was a big day.  Paid off my car a year early!  Doesn't feel as great as it could since now my payment will just go straight to tony's but how amazing if we can pay both of them off by May!!! amazing.  I could not find any photos of my car inside or out except this beauty.  hahaha so silly.  This is when Tony, TJ and I made a trip up two hours north to see a pageant thing in July right after we first met.  This was the beginning my friends.  Wasn't it just beautiful.....

I remember when I was with my parents deciding which one I should choose and my mom said "make sure you buy one that will be easy with babies and car seats etc"  That seemed like a million years away.  Now look at me.  Same car and a baby.  She has been good to me.  Mom and the car. 

29 week birthday.

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It's Coming

28 weeks today!! I think April might actually get here one day.  I just love this little guy even though he is giving me heartburn, back aches and a double chin.  Feeling a baby kick is a crazy thing and I'm trying to soak it in before it is all over.  Here are a few photos for your viewing pleasure.

ps if anyone has any remedies for a baby on the sciatic nerve that would be great.  Swearing in front of HR at work isn't really working out.

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Wedding Bells

My brother Jared got married last Saturday to Anastasia.  It was such a fun day and was a morning wedding which I kind of like- everything was cleaned up by 2!  Perfect time to go home and take a nap.  Anastasia is from Russia and moved here about 2 years ago.  We just love her and couldn't be more happy to have her.
My dad got to marry them and cried through the whole thing.... so did josh, and danielle, and my mom, and jared, and anastasia.  What can I say... we cry.  Here are some photos from the blessed event.

waiting for the wedding to start.  He hates smiling for photos

All 5 girls

all three of these ladies crying watching her walk down the aisle... sweeties.

 

Just a few more months and these boys will be here!

Kiron rolling around in the petals after they left

Such a fun day to see so many of our friends and family. A big thank you to my mom's ward who helped out so much!  So nice to know you have people who are willing to help out.

95 days .... getting extremely terrified.

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