Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Paula is making me LOL

So I got this in an e-mail from my mother today and I can't stop laughing. Enjoy.......
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Tuesday, January 17, 2012

On a lighter note..

Wow... I swear I was not posting my insecurities of life to receive feedback but so many people have made me feel so special.  Thank you so much for all of your nice words!  I am so lucky to have so many wonderful people in my life!

This weekend we got to go on a double date with Portia and Andy.. and Gracie!  I love that Gracie loves us as much as we love her!  We went to Porcupine Grill(e) which is always a treat.... and then to subzero for dessert.   YOWZA.. hurt so good


We also got to babysit Tatum last Monday and this just melted my heart a little bit... can't wait for mine!

Just watching Toy Story
Have a happy Tuesday

kthnxbye

Monday, January 16, 2012

One of those days

Yesterday was a sad ending.... I spent 5 hours making a meal that turned out to be... disappointing.  Tony was a trooper and even had seconds.  I kept telling him to stop since I could taste it and I knew it wasn't that great.  God bless him.... because after that the tears came about how good I am at being mediocre and nothing else.  I was mediocre at dance, hair school, less than mediocre at math, not very good with grammar and punctuation in writing papers, I can't seem to figure out Excel at work sometimes when it should be easy, I tried being good at running but every race I've done I come in last out of my friends, I'm not ugly but I'm mediocre, all my best friends got 4.0 and I was always lower 3.7. etc etc.

So I climbed in my bed sobbing with a brownie covered in peanut butter and chocolate chips.  I just cried while Tony suggested we watch a movie.  As I was crying and telling him to just pick whatever he wanted with my mouth full of brownies I realized how pathetic I looked and started laughing... and crying harder at the same time. It was possibly the strangest feeling I've experienced. I didn't even know which one it was... it was literally both.  Tony picked Princess and the Frog. 

So today... I applied for school.  I CANNOT stand when people ask me why I don't do hair.  I get that it is a valid question, I do.... But sometimes the reason someone doesn't want to pursue something is not something they want to share... with everyone, because everyone asks that question. So now I can say that I'm trying school.. will I actually follow through and register for classes?  I'm making no promises but I'm taking a step in the right direction.  I already have some credits due to concurrent enrollment so I'm going to run with that. Goal now is just to better myself.

All I have to say is I love God.  He has never made me feel not good enough. After princess and the frog we watched that show Beyond and back?? where people die medically and have an out of body experience and then end up being revived.  Most everyone has similar experiences of an overwhelming peace and feeling of love and seeing angels etc.  Last night as we listened to an episode (I took out my contacts so I listened while Tony watched) and these people talked about how much love they felt and one guy mentioned how cool it was to him that god thought he was important enough to have that experience... I cried some more.. in my pillow.  I don't know, it was just really touching and I was an emotional magnet. I just feel so grateful for my testimony... as well as my mother.

My mother has never once made me feel less than the best. She cried when I made Dance Company because she had seen me crushed before.  She let me put my honor roll certificates on the fridge. And when I called her this morning she told me all the wonderful things about me that she could think of. She has no idea how wonderful she is.  I think I learned this "stupid feeling" from her.  I hear her say it a lot and it's just not true.  I call her anytime I have a question and I can't think of a time when she didn't know the answer! She is the funniest person I know and the most beautiful mom... seriously my friends have crushes on her.. right Jim?  She has been through things that most moms couldn't have made it through and she does it with a smile.  She cares about her kids even when we don't deserve it... like really don't deserve it.  Can't tell you how many times I have caught her crying and praying in her closet for her kids. So shout out to Paula for being the best person that I could have to look up to.

Shout out to Tony for being patient and so smart and talented and pretty... no wonder it's hard to feel good enough :) I'm a lucky gal!  and to you... the lone reader... you is kind. you is smart. you is important.
aka watch/ read the help.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

The Christmas One

I finally got some photos off my camera so here goes.....
On Christmas Eve we had our annual sweater party over at Danielle's and Tony's family was able to come which we loved!  We played Dance Central and ate some grub and played minute to win it games.  I will have to find some video from Amanda on those....




Christmas morning we had our own little partay- we were laughing as Santa brought us pretty much the exact same stuff in our stockings.  We opened a few gifts.... YES MY FRIENDS... I KEPT THE SECRET FOR A WHOLE MONTH!! Tony had NO idea I got him an ipad.  It was fabulous and he loves it... sometimes more than me.


Then we headed over to church with the Messam fam and enjoyed a very long sacrament musical program.  Then breakfast with the Taylor fam and presents.  These kids are too funny.  Kiron was a favorite for me this year.  He would get SO excited to open his presents and kept struggling to get the tape off. My favorite sentence was "Oh wow Santa wrapped this one real good!".  Tony got an old school Lakers nightie jersey.  Looks great ;) and a best buy card to get an ipad cover from Jake and Amanda.  I got luggage, menu planner.. yay?....and a change counting piggy bank thingy and shampoo set from Danielle!







We then made it back to the Messam fam for scones and presents. Luckily, we are really good at eating so much food. We got some money to put into savings which was a really big help from Pat and Mel as well as Tony's uncle Junior and Curt! Amanda hooked us up with some clothes as well as Mama Mel. Tony got an electric shaving set thingy. We were so lucky to be spoiled by all of our family!


Then after a fun day of family we headed back home and were pooped! We have our first family ornament to put on our first tree next year.  We got lucky and already had a tree decorated for us this year. 

Tony's 12 days of cheesy christmas I gave him
hope you had a merry ho ho

kthnxbye

Thursday, January 5, 2012

New year goals (not resolutions)

1. Have family prayer together every night
2. Read at least a chapter of scriptures together ever night
3. Attend the temple at least twice a month
4. Complete p90x sometime in the year or just get ridiculously fit
5. Get preggers.... if tony will agree... then i can skip the fitness ;)
6. Save lots and lots of money
7. Learn to cook... well. Already started with TACOS!

8. Tell better jokes
9. See more friends more often
10. Be happy snitches!!

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